It sure is. It’s WAY harder than I anticipated it would be post-baby.
I knew my body would be different, I knew my energy levels would vary, I knew I’d have to plan my workouts around the baby. What I didn’t anticipate is the sheer LACK OF TIME in my day to even attempt a workout. As one of my friends who is a mom of two so eloquently put it, “I can barely wipe my own butt.” True, sister.
I also didn’t anticipate the degree of ambivalence I’ve felt toward getting back into a workout routine. Some of this is healthy; just because our society preaches that women should ‘bounce back’ after baby, it doesn’t mean it’s right. Women who become mothers can’t ‘bounce back;’ instead we need to find our ‘new normal’ and work within those parameters. However, while I don’t mind delaying some of my fitness goals for the time being, I knew I wasn’t making an effort in the exercise department. This surprised me, as I thought by six months postpartum, I’d be racing all over town with the running stroller, or dropping Maelle in child watch at the Y while I got back to my old group exercise classes.
About a month ago, I started to feel truly ready–physically and mentally–to get back into a more structured workout routine. Working out is part of who I am, and even when it’s difficult to carve out the time, I’m always glad I did. But, see LACK OF TIME, above. And then holidays happened. And two big trips. So, here we are mid-January, and I’m just now attempting to do something physical every day.
Wednesday, I lifted weights for 25 minutes. The baby slept for 30. So, her cries ended my workout and I didn’t get anything else done. But, I’d broken a sweat and felt damn proud.
While I there is childcare available at the Y, I’m just not ready to drop Maelle off there yet. (Yet another thing I didn’t anticipate.) She’s so small (for real–only the 9th percentile for weight!), and so young, and it’s cold and flu season. I’m sure I’ll feel more ready later this spring and summer when she’s a bit older.
So, for now I’ll need to do my workouts at home most of the time. I have all the gear, and I’m actually a little excited to try out all those quick workout guides I’ve torn out of magazines over the years.
Today, I took Maelle out on a stroller run. The snow had subsided, so I bundled her up and off we went! We did 2.64 miles at about a 10-minute pace; not bad for this out-of-shape momma pushing a stroller on a windy day.
I’m challenging myself to do something active every day, even if it’s only a power walk with the stroller. I always feel better when I’m exercising regularly, and it motivates me to eat better, too. It’s really hard to find the time to workout; there are days I don’t feel like I get a single thing done outside of caring for my child. But, I know this season is temporary, and (more importantly) that I’ll be glad I put in some effort when bathing suit season rolls around!